Softening into my design energetics

Softening into my design energetics

Sep 20, 2022

 

I’ve been surrendering to the guidance my energies for the past couple of years. It wasn’t necessarily by choice. After so many stints in burnout I figured, why not? Clearly I was pushing against something. Little did I know that something was myself

I started noticing how my energy levels were. Where I’m feeling pulled towards, what nourishes or drains me, how my body feels and trying to honour that. And that was before I had the language of Human Design to contextualize and name what I was experiencing. So imagine my surprise and validation once I learned about human design.

 

Here’s what I’ve noticed as a result of surrendering to my energetics (so far) as a 4/6 splenic projector:

How my energies actually support and guide me. In showing me what I have energy for, what to focus on and where to go next (open head + mind + undefined G after all)

Everything is connected. Everything is energy.

How we are in one thing ripples into everything else we do. Our relationship to ourself often mirrors our relationship with/to others. Our beliefs, the stories we have of ourselves impacts how we process, show up and live. They’re the glasses through which we experience the world.

Something that I’ve noticed among Projectors is the frustration/bitterness of ‘not having enough energy’ to do all the things they want to do. The fear of missing out their opportunity or not having enough resources to follow through. And while there is some truth in that, I also want to highlight that no matter what design, we are all equipped with exactly what we need to live out our desires/purpose/mission/calling.

But the way we approach it might look vastly different than others.

The more we try to follow somebody else’s model of success, the less successful we are. The more we try to be anyone other than ourselves, the harder life becomes.

I’m a Splenic Projector with 2 defined centers. And technically if I only operate with these centers I won’t be able to ‘accomplish much’ compared to others BUT/AND I’m also influenced by the people around me and the transits.

On top of my strategy and authority; these energies guide me on what I have energy for and the when to jump onto something. Because here’s the truth; if I follow every idea, every desire I have and jump into executing them right away, it’s a recipe for burnout. And then bitterness and frustration arise, reinforcing the belief that I indeed don’t have enough (and am not enough to fulfill said ideas)

But that couldn’t be further from the truth.

Not every idea, thought, question is meant to be answered/fulfilled/figured out by me. Not every expectation is mine to take on.

By spreading myself thin trying to do all the things, I end up doing nothing aligned to me (and losing myself in the process!) Plus there’s the realities of living in this world. We are intertwined with what’s happening within our communities, our ecology, the collective cycle etc. Nobody is above or immune to any of that. There are bills to pay, people to care for, trauma that needs healing, relationships to nourish etc.

So taking all that into consideration, perhaps the most supportive way to operate/move through this world in an aligned and efficient manner is by following our energetic capacity and flow.

 

How did I do that?

  • By making space to tune in and listen. Noticing what lights me up me, what drains me, what doesn’t feel right and what feels good. Checking in and moving my body.
  • By being open and exploring through a lens of curiosity & compassion. Nothing to fix. Just small shifts to try out and play with.
  • Sensitizing to what’s my energy, how it wants to flow, what needs support in processing, what to release and what I have capacity for.

 

Bringing my self-care to the forefront actually expands my capacity to show up, do more efficiently and openly receive. By honouring my energetic flow I’ve been able to regulate my nervous system, heal and finally stop going against myself.

It’s also improved how I show up in relationships, in my business and my health. It’s expanded my ability to guide better, without attachments or expectations. To notice which invitations feel good to step into, what areas in my life needs some extra TLC and allowing me to embody my signature theme of success more frequently.

But most importantly, I feel more me. More rooted in myself, my truth and desires.

 

TL;DR Cliffnotes

We are all equipped with exactly what we need to live out our desires/purpose/mission/calling.

But the way we approach it might look vastly different than others.

The more we try to follow somebody else’s model of success, the less successful we are.

The more we try to be anyone other than ourselves, the harder life becomes.

Not every idea, thought, question is meant to be answered/fulfilled/figured out by you.

Not every expectation is yours to take on.

 

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