May 24, 2019
So I found out recently, why it’s been so incredibly difficult for me to balance 🤔
Below is a graph from my naturopath: it shows how my body has been and still is operating in fight or flight mode. But, what do you mean? I don’t feel that stressed?! 😑
I was doing all the “right” things: Eating healthy, exercising, practicing ease yet it wasn’t enough. Something was still off. I’ve been wandering in circles trying to pinpoint what.
After all when you’ve been going on a thousand miles per hour for the past 10 years, it becomes a way of being. Pushing became second nature to me
Even though I’ve learned a lot of ease and softening from Strala yoga, there is still so much unreleased tension and repressed traumas. In my mind I knew what to do, but you can’t really think your way into healing can you? I need to reprogram my entire way of thinking and being
It’s a challenge slowing down. Somedays are good, I’m doing less and giving myself a lot more space to just be. Other days, not so easy. My anxiety kicks back, I get palpitations again and my mind races. Sometimes, it’s easier to numb with Netflix and that’s ok.
Embracing more self-compassion and taking it one step at a time. Doing little things like yoga, walking or even deep breathing helps. And the biggest one of all: understanding that even though I’m a health coach I still need help 😅 after all, a doctor can’t operate on themselves right?!
Remember, healing is not linear 💕 and you don’t have to do it alone. I’m so grateful to finally have someone to lean on, hold my hand and guide me through