What if I never dared? How one post changed everything for me.

When I’m preparing for a launch, I get flooded with inspiration. It’s like a portal opens, an invitation to revise and tap into my values, to remind myself why I do what I do and to share that with others.

Because it’s so easy to get complacent. To hide.

Sharing here has always felt incredibly vulnerable. I’ve always loved writing, yet I’ve never felt eloquent or unique enough for that matter.

Identity Crisis = Expression crisis?

Being a third-culture kid, I never quite belonged. I always stood out—by the way I looked, by the languages I spoke.

I was born in Peru, but my family moved to Canada when I was just a toddler. I started kindergarten speaking only Cantonese, which landed me in ESL. My homeroom teacher forbade us from speaking anything other than English. She scolded us constantly. Instilling fear and shame for speaking our mother tongue.

When I was seven, we moved back to Peru. Suddenly, I was the Chinese-looking girl who only spoke English. I had to learn Spanish from scratch, and I remember crying over the pronunciation of “agua.” (What do you mean the ‘gu’ sounds like a ‘w’?! 😭)

Ten years later, I returned to Canada for university. Thankfully, I had gone to a Peruvian-American school, so my English stayed intact—though a little rusty.

Now, English is my primary language for writing. And yet, there are still moments when writing—especially about my business, my story, and my offers—feels incredibly tender, vulnerable and exposed.

Safety & capacity in being seen

I’ve had to build safety and capacity to be able to show up and take up space. I’ve had many faceless accounts where I poured my heart into writing & photography but rarely about myself. But when Whole & Unleashed was born I knew I had to stop hiding. I started with a post here and there. Stuck to non-controversial topics. Yet some days, I wanted to scream my truth from the rooftops; other days, it felt safer to be quiet.

Sharing human design for the first time was terrifying. The inadequacy, the fear, the “authorities” policing what was correct and the loud voices dominating the space. I held myself back… but the reflections inside me kept pushing to be externalized. (I get it now, the tension of wanting to stay hidden but also being a 4/6 with a hanging 12 and 33, my personal truth just wanted to be shared with the collective at times 🥹)

So I made my first posts. I approached them with curiosity, as if I were just sharing with a friend. And then—everything started falling into place.

Sessions were being booked, my writing was recognized, my work reached people around the world. I experienced waves of expansion and contraction because that meant more eyes, more criticism.

Seen but no safety?

But I realized recently: I was still hiding. Even as I got comfortable sharing my interpretations of human design, there were deeper truths I felt but didn’t dare to express publicly.

Until now 😅

But I also know, I needed that time—showing up consistently for 2 years via transit posts and weekly newsletter—to practice, to build safety, to gather the courage. Micro doses of exposure therapy I guess!

The more I showed up, the more messages, recognition & invitations I received from clients and readers. There are still days where I feel like I’m yelling into the void and days where I get surprised by the impact my words have on others. Those messages have been the anchor that keeps me rooted in my truth. The reminder that I am exactly where I’m meant to be.

If I had never dared to share, I wouldn’t have met the incredible people I’ve met. If I hadn’t put myself out there, I’d still be wondering, “What if?”

Some of the messages/feedback that have kept me going (shared with permission) >>

I save every message because it’s so easy to forget how far we’ve gotten. But also, I’m sharing all this in hopes that it will give you a little bit of courage, a gentle nudge towards those dreams you have that keep you up at night. The voices of your desires that constantly constantly “what if?”

Is my English perfect? Clearly not! But I’m not trying to fit in or be perfect anymore.

If I had never shared my very first post I wouldn’t have launched my podcast, shared HD with over 100s of people, gotten invitations to speak & teach, written a book! (that’s being currently edited)…

I just know my body had been physically sick because there was so much that needed to be expressed yet I kept it all hidden and that cost me dearly. You will likely find out, like me, that the price of keeping yourself from doing what you ache & long for might be higher than actually doing the thing that is scary but liberating. I was terrified and heavily conditioned to not take up space, to lay low because I was told the world does not know how to treat those who are different. Oh, but how wrong that voice was…

⚡️What would you be doing, if you had all the time and resources in the world? If you knew you couldn’t fail, what would you do?

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